Welcome, to a personal exploration

Fortunately, while Pascal's layering hasn't been as extensive as i would have hoped, it has been present, his failings have given good religious reflections in the negative sense, his critical attacks good personal reflections -possibly the beginnings of non-violent pressure/resistance- unfortunately i still needed to add in another book towards sub atomic theory -to solidify a fruitful ground- but the general idea of connexion has come into focus -we are one i know that now beyond the belief- my integrity still wavers too much in honoring it.

General focus of the next topic, motion and synergy.

It is funny, that i come to this point to understand the necessity of love, all my venom only ever reached her (never the other and how could it -i cannot play the game of relative good- if we are one through infinity -the air suffused with insults as each creates their relative good- i play and my sight turns it only against her) how can i honor both the parents, this world is corrupt when it was simply there and when it was against me (the mute flux, here it is easy to love, in the rest it is easy to my hatred and rigidity) how does one honor the father and mother, all it needs is love (i suppose it is so simple, yet i don't know if i will make it through -every bit of venom only came to her- my scylla and charybdis take their toll) i hate this construct but cannot play that pathetic game; act vindictive and the air fills with directed insults, in silence the air is simply filled with insults ( this world is noxious and putrid -its relative power brings low- a small ratio seems to be relatively well off -all seem to be relatively well-off!- forgive them for they know not what they do and ignorance is bliss) ah well, i said i would go as far as i can and that is exactly what i intend to do!

Coming soon, integral self-governance.

Does joy extend through as the root, is the end the beginning? When something brings about anger, can the rule broken root in what creates joy, could anger transmute into passion because one focuses on joy? what is the essence of anger and how does one go beyond anger? what is it to go beyond control, but is every lady far beyond a whore? do not consider these as statements, i have no right to do more than question. Ignorance and common sense they are both rejected as insults without respect. I wish people had ignorance, just as i wish they had common sense, and respect for them. instead they are rejected because everyone knows. I don't know because i don't have integrity, so please always take these as questions, i have no right to speak of truth. The difference is that i truly am ugly -as is clearly seen in my actions-and there is no integrity here, anyone may see it in my actions. So how does one go beyond remorse, in itself is it more than concretion of what was, as what one is, you were and that is an affirmation, what does it do in the present? Is it real maturity, beyond remorse?