I feel as if I have been indigo before and have had many crystal experiences that all stand out from early childhood. Being a lightwarrior has been too easy but the lightworker moments seem more focused and take effort and I always feel more satisfied and fulfilled. I believe I am a hybrid because my blood type is A- and I am extra sensitive to all energy. I think that hybrids have been with humans for a very long time so I can relate to both very well. I have memories of alien and druid. I can see the balance and truth in all things. I see the age of dreams and age of light as being great spiritual learning tools. This place has a very high potential because of constant change which breeds very knowledgeable souls. In the age of dreams the some rest and some thrive and in the age of light some thrive and some rest. Some are born out of each and as the cycle continues we all come back to where we are born.
I have always been different. I only recently moved out of the dark and into the light. I learned a lot from the dark but am so sensitive to the energy that it almost killed me. I love to heal and I have to focus on it but challenges relax me. I get bored when I'm not challenging myself by moving my thoughts outside of comfort zones. It makes me appear impatient because I like to tell it how it is if I'm going to talk and I get nowhere fast. I find I get better results when I us indirect communication like using my higher self to relay messages in dreams or using my energy to calm or heal the atmosphere and moods.
I still have to research more as I have only recently drawn my studies out of the dark and into the light. I also believe I sent myself into the most challenging life of imbalance I could to better understand the dark. I know that everything serves good although it may not appear so to some. The dark is necessary for many many reasons but as we move into the light it will sleep and some may even transmute into light. I am back in my element now though and things are picking up speed for me as old memories flow in with complete understandings.I think this mission would be better served with the full appreciation of both sides. We cannot get caught up with which side is right or better because both sides serve good. If something is bad than it will continue to be bad until met by good. Good can come from bad just as good comes from good. If you imagine something as bad it just slows down the evolution of bad to good. You need to understand both and see good in all. Trust in nature. All energy is necessary. Now is the time of light so it is natural to live, think, and be light. Time for our physical bodies to heal and grow back up their full potential. It is safe to do that in the Golden age.My mission is to learn,teach,and heal. I want to experience the times of change and help ease them as they go and remember times of light and dark at their peek. I love watching spirits grow in knowledge on all levels and in all ages.They need to not judge the forces that live in the age of dreams to harsh for what they have done in the past. As this world moves in and out of the age of light and dark the human race picks up on it with great precision. Those that live in the age of dreams know that to insure their survival they must do their job. If humans physical bodies where allowed to be as great as they are in the golden age in the age of dreams then they would have surely destroyed themselves by now.It was the end of my dark studies and the return of light understandings. I barely stayed alive and plan on healing for as long as I live in this golden age. Those energies are very intense.It is time for me to heal this body and so I must come out of isolation and join more like minded individuals. My kidneys started hurting ten years ago and I have been in constant pain until 2013. The pain was necessary to ground me long enough so that I could learn as much as I could from that time.
My father killed himself when I was five years old and I became very dark in my thoughts. I spent the next twenty three years using the dark without knowing unity. I always had great natural abilities in the dark but nature always kept me in balance by making me pay for it. I ignored nature's warning and the power of others. I have always been extremely sensitive to the energies around me and I didn't care that I was destroying myself. I did not care to live and I used that to live a very dangerous life. I had nearly died time and time again. My kidneys began to cause me pain when I was 18 and I lived with constant pain for ten years. I had kidney stones and everything inside me was falling apart. I didn't care.
I learned so much from that world. Everything serves good because out of the bad good things happen too. I started caring for myself more and more as the good things happened. Eventually I even started caring if I lived or not. At first it was for my kids.
I started eating better foods using my kidney pain as a guide to what was healthy and what was not. I lost weight and gained muscle without even trying. In early 2012 I was still looking at only the dark side of things but I was beginning to gain interest in things. I studied all the latest conspiracies and other stories only focusing on the fear aspects of everything. The health food I was eating was no joke. I ate spirulina, chlorella, and even royal jelly. I have always been sensitive to the energies and they began speaking to me. I started to sleep for more than 3 hours a night and that is something I could never do. I even began to remember my dreams. As a child my spirit spoke to me in my dreams and was telling me something was wrong because all I ever had was nightmares. I even had dreams about past lives. Now my spirit was really opening me up and in mid 2012 I finally started looking at the good side of things. That allowed me to re-examine all the knowledge I had gained over the years.
Things started speeding up and after years of studying the dark side of religion I remembered all the good and picked Wicca because it rang with my dreams of being some sort of druid in a past life. I don't think the religion matters it depends on the individual. I know that ringing with what holds true to yourself matters most and it sped things up even more because it felt so familiar. Now here I am and each day I grow stronger and better. The health food didn't stop the pain tho. Everything else was improving better than it ever has been before in this life except my kidney was still talking to me. It actually started talking to me more. It became so sensitive that every time I stressed even a little I urinated blood. If I thought about what not to eat or what to eat it didn't matter. I meditated and gained a lot from that but still it hurt. It wasn't till I started reaching out to my mother to finally build a friendship with her that I started realizing she was a very special person too. I asked her to pray for my kidney and it instantly felt better. I started calling her every morning to pray it away. Now that it's 2013 all I have to do is think about my mom and the pain stops.
Out of everything I learned I would say the most important thing is that appreciation is the key. We must all appreciate everything in this life because it all serves good and that good will flow much more free if it is appreciated.
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