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Lost spirit

In the middle of the night, under the moonless sky there was an old graveyard. Some tombs were new and some from Victorian times. It stretched far in the horizon. There were flowers and angels on the tombs. One could see which is taken care of and has a family and which was deserted to be covered by weeds. There weren’t any people at…


Added by anki on November 4, 2019 at 5:56pm — 2 Comments




What do you do when the knife hits your chest?

When it runs across pale skin and digs deep into your heart

The warfare spend through the years becomes meaningless

The strive vanishes and the importance of life and only life is there.

Would you hate your killer in the end?

The one who took your life? Are they good or bad?

If death is only transition wouldn’t they be a rescuer?

What is the meaning of life if death means…


Added by anki on October 28, 2019 at 5:45pm — 1 Comment

The purple queen

Once in the undercover of the night

Under a silken blanket of stars

Under the guidance of the full bright moon

The throne of skulls rose above the oceans.

a diamond star shining on top as the light that she is.


Out of the darkness of the sky she was born

Free as the air and strong as the earth beneath

Out of the dusts of Gia she was sculptured

To walk the earth as long as time exists.


The grass caressed her bare…


Added by anki on October 5, 2019 at 7:00pm — 5 Comments

Witches Trials Today and Vlach Magic


The Vlachs of Serbia are an ethnic minority of Serbia, culturally and linguistically related to Romanians. Magic is an important part of Vlach life and customs and everything Vlachs believe in has, in a way, magical traits. Vlach magic, by its strength, is next to…


Added by anki on June 30, 2019 at 10:15am — 1 Comment

The house of mirrors

- essay based on a dream, written by me.
Sometimes what we fear is exactly what we need the most, the things we avoid is what will help us and the people we dislike is who will teach us the biggest lessons in life. The darkness of the soul is the ugliness in us we all try to…

Added by anki on March 9, 2019 at 7:53pm — No Comments

My inner library

There is a library close to my house, no more than a 15-minute walk. Around the corner close by a shopping mall that is always filled by the children from the two schools nearby. It is a place that I used to go to think and gather my thoughts when I had an hour free. On my way back from work I would go there and sit with headphones in my ears so no one would bother me, a book in my hands and I would ponder upon everything happening in my life. That…

Added by anki on March 1, 2019 at 7:03pm — No Comments

Eternal flame

*** written for a very special someone***

There is love deeper than any other I have ever seen

Love that tears your heart out right out of your chest

Love so intense that it hurts and makes your body vibrate in ecstasy.



Added by anki on February 28, 2019 at 11:15am — No Comments

Eyes of the father

Inside my heart there is a flame, shining like the father above

Dancing to the rhythm of mother below, forever burning.

A sun within my heart, the birth of all creation

A seat of the soul and the flower of life.

Such beauty is only surpassed by Venus and Helen of Troy.


The inner sun it is called, a second of three that shine.

One beneath our feet inside the chest of the mother

One in our hearts and one in the eye of the…


Added by anki on February 18, 2019 at 6:18pm — 1 Comment

The Naghini

I want to tell you the story of a woman known only as the Indian beauty.  She was a young yoga teacher in India, she thought ashtanga to children and loved to be around them.  She had a small studio at the corner of a square where lots of people would hand around.  Many of those people would chase the dogs and kill them, because there were too many and would spread diseases according to the local population. A man with a big knife was called the hero of the city because he could kill a dog…


Added by anki on February 3, 2019 at 6:24am — 1 Comment

Labyrinth of thoughts

Who am I? what am I? There are so many voices inside my head.

So many faces, so many versions of who I am supposed to be.

I feel lost in the myriad of me’s dwelling inside my mind.

The countless trains racing through my mind

Each filled with passengers called thoughts and each about something else.

Such is the chaos inside my brain, chaos I don’t even understand.


Often I am well and can speak to you, I can even help you.

But other…


Added by anki on November 27, 2018 at 5:18pm — No Comments

The gates of Walhalla

When you work with people there is always that one that gets under your skin, the one that you bond strongest with, the one that makes your day worthwhile. I work with people because I love helping them in their hard moments, I love to be of service to them with anything they need. Life can be so harsh that it often doesn’t take much to bring a smile to someone’s…

Added by anki on November 23, 2018 at 6:00pm — No Comments


In my field of work, I meet many different types of people, each with their interests and ways of live. Countless different souls on the path of creation. Some meet each other on the way to mastery and help each other grow and then move on, o travel further alone.  Some we meet and they automatically attract us, they have this something inside them that pulls us to them without even knowing why. Might be a smile, the way they look at us or the way they carry themselves across the room when…


Added by anki on November 4, 2018 at 2:09pm — No Comments

The old school

There was a time long ago, when electricity was a thing of the past. When children went to school with horse and wagon, or walking. When the streets were covered with dirt and machinery didn’t rule our lives. It was a charming time filled with hard working people, with fear of the supernatural and with homemade meals cooked by the mother who stayed by the hot stove all day while her man was working to put that same food on the table. It was an alien time that most of us can’t image yet it…


Added by anki on October 31, 2018 at 2:34pm — 3 Comments

Into the mind of a madman


What is it that dwells me as the sun goes down

A symphony of noises that never made a sound

Frozen  notes of once have beens

Emotions of agony buried deep within

For why is this road less travelled,

Rockier than the stones at sea

And why does this heart restless

Even with the moon at ease.


No birds in flight above the waters

No worms crawling underneath the sand

Just endless ramble of the…


Added by anki on October 18, 2018 at 6:16pm — 1 Comment

A few words from the heart

Yesterday I opened a new chapter of my life and closed the door of the past. A new life has started, a new me. The old me is in the past where she belongs. I faced fears i never thought possible, yet i did. I am very proud of that and even with unbelief that I could. 

My mind and attitude has changed from facing this fear too. I am now feeling free to be myself and speak my mind. I respect myself a lot more and i do not accept being disrespected and walked over…


Added by anki on October 15, 2018 at 4:49pm — 2 Comments

To my princess


Since the first moment I laid eyes on you I fell in love

It was love in first sight, not the romantic kind, but the unconditional kind

I never sat down to put into words how much you mean to me,

How my heart explodes when I see you smile.


The beautiful shine in your eyes when you are happy

The contagious laugh, the sensitive nature of your soul

I have never met a soul as beautiful as yours.

Never will there be another you, in…


Added by anki on September 24, 2018 at 4:31pm — No Comments

The little spider

Once upon a time there was a little spider living under the roof of an abandoned house.

It slept in its small web and lived off flies and mosquitos that got stuck in its web.

It used to live there with its mother and 2 sisters, many moons ago.

Her sisters left and mother fell off her web and never came back.

It was a lonely life but it had everything It needed there in her small web

It was a beautiful web with brilliant shapes and sparkling under the…


Added by anki on September 23, 2018 at 12:38pm — No Comments

Under the surface

There is so much in my head that sometimes I wish I had a turn off switch

With one click everything would stop, even the thought of who I am.

What would it be like if one day I could wake up as someone else.

May be life would be easier, may be than I don’t have to fight everyday

My sanity hangs on a thread of a spider’s web, the slightest breeze can tear it

Leaving me falling down in a black hole of fear and pain, memory’s and feelings

Of a time long…


Added by anki on September 19, 2018 at 12:30pm — No Comments

Womb of life

Life is born in darkness; the nothingness of the womb is the mother of all creation

No cells and no souls exist outside of the nothing

We all exist in it, in a state of dream, playing characters of our own subconscious

A continuous archetype theater over and and over again

The curtains never fall, the light never turns on

It is but an illusion of a beautiful mind,

There is no light and no self in a dream world.

The consciousness is all there…


Added by anki on September 3, 2018 at 4:19pm — No Comments

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