Hello all.. I would like to write a little bit here since there is nowhere else I could say this to anyone.. If I talk about this with my family they will think I'm crazy and that I need more antiphyscotic pills (I tried it so that's how I know).. If I talk to my psychologist or psychiatrist about this they will think I'm just having allucinations and that in order to fit with society I have to follow their academicfreudian psychological advices and if I don't they will put me inside a pschitrical instituion like they did before..
So te begin with this.. I feel that I don't care anymore about what people, friends or family think about me.. I used to and it gave me a lot of pain.. just because you will never be like they want you to be.. I realized is better to live to your own expectations than to other peoples expectations..I just had fights with my family because I left the Whatsapp group (HAHAHA) and my friends thought something was wrong about me because I left thei stupid group.. where they actually dont't do anything expect talk shit about everyone and send pictures ofsexy women.. My sister says I should be in the group just because we can communicate better and i just said.. fuck it.. if you want to communicate with me just talk to me or send a private message.. I;m not going to stand all your stupid posts trying to have some aceptation from everyone else.. My friend posts pictures with his new car and I feel so dissapointed.. come on man.. fuck your new car and thank you for showing me what is inside you.
I'm trying to be as true to myself as I can.. I don't say this to anyone but someone is "guiding" me inside my heas and is so hard to do things right.. I'm tired.. "Hipocrita" (Hypocrite), "Cobarde" (Coward).. I'm grateful for its guidance and I understand that someone wnats me to learn how te reach my full potential.. but at the sme time everyone around me is taking a directionI don't want to follow.. I know that everytime they see me they think "Oh here comes that crazy guy again.."
I want to love them.. but everyone is full of shit.. there is nothing I can do..
I'm trying to think "don't be mad.. have mercy and love them for who they are" fuck it man I'm not a buddah or whatever
peace love and light to everyone here
PD> I', not a christian.. I just like how jesus hinked and his story I dont care if its fake or real... thats why the picture