From where I stand, I recognize a fear of belief, probably not dissimilar to that of an atheist, while I'm firmly on the other side of that equation. I have no doubt about the Be-ing of what we term "Creator" or even creators for that matter. I have no doubt that- as we define ourselves as living creatures- the root of existence is alive and a being of such magnitude that we can only know we are but a tiny fraction of its potential. Yet we are a multitude of necessity, meaning; we need to be many to accomplish one thing.
However, I do not believe, but am even afraid of retreating into such position of complacency without understanding. I'm afraid I won't do justice to these revelations, if I leave them unexplored while looking at a loss of orientation amongst humans around the world.
Several religions and movements under other titles appear to try dealing with that dilemma. Whether it was that same fear or another intuitive urgency, I only believe that each leader or originator felt that a new orientation had to be on the agenda.
And so does the atheist, but without any acceptance of moral guidance, the atheist appears selfish, hardheaded and lost for that matter. The energy it takes to fight doubts that must emerge for any atheist, every time we witness unexplained sensations or stunning "coincidences" requires focus against a truth that reaches far beyond the physicality they hold on to so firmly.
I think- or could imagine- that they are afraid of belief, because they don't want to feel dumb or submissive to dictations from any religious "authorities", surrendering to some dogma and having to obey false or illogical directives. They are afraid of being restricted by lies or confined by so-called destinies, designed by some supernatural boss, whose force was manifested only in its army of believers. They are afraid of their own sense of moral, denying it and rationalizing it into suffocating superstition beyond any and all reason. "Reason" being the key word.
Now, I'm on the other side of this. I love to feel the living power of the Infinite, but have that urge to understand all that I can understand as a human being. As I study various scriptures, I begin to read clearly that many- if not all- of them understood deeply and clearly what they were writing about. That it is us, who failed to receive their messages properly, knowing that we would have to decipher them and translate them into our world of reasoning just so we see the actual wisdom they gave to us.
Belief as we encounter it today is most often the submission to certain misunderstandings, not even leading to the otherwise desired obedience to moral dogma and the likes. The same motivation that had them glued to fairy tales as children appears to have them glued to such dogma. "A great reward comes to those who observe, submit and obey" or any kind of pay-off for a faithful "mindset". I could go on and on about the deceit that comes from such ideas, as people pretend their way through life with a straw at hand that promises salvation as long as they fear god, never mind how they actually act in life. And that's not even the problem I am concerned with right now.
Belief is a certain surrender without knowing just how far did you get in your clarity. I don't expect everybody to follow so passionately a path of understanding. It cannot be necessary in order for us to function. As much as I fear belief for this reason, I sense that belief itself is the middleground, the place where people accept what they cannot understand in order to act with a positive confirmation from their soul. I only wish that people would connect to their soul more. This is what Christianity has always been all about. Our over-soul, the soul from which we split off and in which we merge again is in the center of the Tree of Life and Christianity called this Christ. If there were such occupation as spiritual physicist or chemist, the Tree of Life is- by analogy- the molecular composition of life and as such all of existence as we are made to perceive and accept. Christos is nothing but a fork in the road of becoming. But there we are already all One. We are all being informed together through this Sephirah, Tiphared, in the middle of this Tree. And since we are adults, we understand the concept of a model, we know that it is nothing but an aid to visualize the connections between all milestones of creation.
This is why I believe that Christianity in its very roots is by far more overtly kabalistic than any other religious movement of magnitude. But it is difficult to understand without guidance. It takes a great deal of dedicated studying to even encounter this properly. Who of you Christians out there knows that "God" is a title exactly like "Satan", which is not one being, person, angel, demon or what ever creature. They are titles equivalent to Lord, which is why "Lord" so often replaces "God". Satan, however, is the "negative" potential, while "God" is neither good nor bad, positive or negative. We are composed of all this, which is why "God" or even "gods" for that matter are within us, or the powers that compose us as we are. Naturally not just us, but all there is from stone to lily, from star to a grain of sand and through water and fire into living entities.
And all of that for some reason. Ever since consciousness received the power to ask back, we've began speculating about this reason. I tend to think that it is that very question that marks a milestone of attainment and that we'll get there as the answer and not to receive it.
But, just to clarify, Christianity in its roots is connecting far more to all those religions that long for enlightenment, not anything better or worse. Even Judaism, the bones and the memory of Christianity, is on that same path, even if most if not all its followers, too, went astray. Except they don't seem to know this while being firmly convinced they're holding on to their traditions faithfully, deserving some reward.
There cannot be any reward for any single person other than continue to being driven and to recognize when to rest. No single lifetime will yield a final reward at least thus far. And this final reward will be collectively and simultaneously. At least that is what I.... believe. Haha.