**** ADULT ADVISORY WARNING, DON'T READ OF YOU DON'T HAVE A CONSCIENCE ****
There are some things that need to be said, and since I'm already the community designated, evil, overlord, asshole here, I'll say it myself. As many of you know, my financial situation recently required the community come together and cover the monthly costs of the community for the first time - in this endeavor, the community was unsuccessful and was only able to cover about 2/3 of our operating costs. I've done this for 4 years, I'm not rich, and it hasn't been easy, I only asked that we be able to cover this once as a community to help me through a real rough time for me having lost my job. This could be termed "real life", although it is provided on the Internet and individuals have the ability to remain for the most part anonymous, there are real people behind each keyboard, real people working at a job in order to make money, to cover real costs that are required for the operation of our great community. My internet got shut off, and was days away from losing my electricity/heat/water, and was fortunate enough to be blessed with family that provided me with meals when hungry.
So when the community bills were due and April ended a week ago, a decision had to be made, in order to slim some of our costs in order to keep the core community online - and hence the additional Library hosting could not be paid, and needed to be taken offline. This conservation of resources and slimming down was for the past week (7 days), in which a bold message was provided to those attempting access the Library: "Due to lack of contributions to the costs of providing the digital library, it is no longer available. If you would like to see it return, consider making a donation." along with a link to the details as to our operating costs, current status, and method to contribute - http://www.esotericonline.net/page/community-operations .
It was during this past week, that several of you contacted myself, managers and others in chat and comments, asking what had happened to the library, and when it would be back up. We really are not dealing with rocket science here, but rather simple human condition, bold Virgo honesty, and English language as to the situation. Some community members went to the point to send me emails, complaining that they were not able to download additional books, and went as far as asking for special concessions to be able to continue downloading - while at the same time, not being one who has actually donated to the costs.
Try and think if it's fair for you to expect and react in such a manner, when there are individuals who have indeed donated - in this past week when hundreds of community members visited the Library, seeing the message about why it was currently unavailable, knowing of the link to help it become available once again, and not a single person had the conscience to do so, not even $1 (you know, those 4 quarters in your couch cushion, or 10 dimes jingling in your pocket). So give yourself a pat of the back for the reciprocation of more than $10,000 coming out of my pocket over the past 4 years so you can communicate with like-minds/hearts, learn the sacred sciences, and download e-books
Please try to look inside yourself, and contemplate if you are one of the individuals who thought to yourself "Oh well, I'll just wait for someone else to donate, and check back later to start downloading again, once other people contribute enough for the Library to be available to me". Guilt trip? Most certainly. Are you taking what I have said personally? Perhaps you should. Because I'll let you in on a little secret, if yourself or other people are like that, no one donates, ever. It's kind of like when everyone standing around while someone gets robbed or drowns, waiting for someone else to step up and save them
That being said, to everyone who didn't care enough to ever say or ask anything to me about my difficult situation, don't worry. I have spent a stressful two weeks in interviews, and having found a job, I will be that "someone" for you again. Your waiting succeeded, and you only had to be inconvenienced for a week and can continue your downloading again - enjoy the 7,311 books that community rock-star Blessed has worked tirelessly to manage for you, and hope it's still as easy to look in a mirror. I apologize that there isn't a "dis-like" button you can use on this post, and no I'm not going to create one.