Do you sometimes sense the eternal layer?
When I grief in remembrance of loved beings that had died, or simply those, who were connected to me in one form or another, I find myself feeling eternity, calmly keeping everything afloat. I sense that we are all just a blooming of it, tendrils reaching into function in the fireworks of life, full of bright sparks and dark clouds. In life we know pain, anger, love and pleasure, sadness, relief, all these sensations and emotions that remind us of our existence individually. But through it all we pass collectively as an eternal being or non-being. I wonder and believe, eternity knows no hate nor love, no quality as we perceive it, but only function. And in our greatest happiness and worst sadness we can find a calming balance when we reach out and try to sense the endlessness that only works through us.
However it manifests, we meet it with sensations that teach us more about life. Whether it is a human or a cat, even a seed or a mountain.
When I came to read the Bhagavad-Gita, I first was so torn, when I read about the suggestion to be ambivalent, without emotion toward anything, be it achievement or failure. At least that's what it seems to have said. But a while later I started to understand what was meant by it. Prevent yourself from becoming addicted to something of no consequence and focus on what has consequence instead. It does not call for us to become psychopaths or sociopaths, but to seek balance with the purpose of functioning at our best. That we become conscious of what is joy and sadness itself against the reasons for it, which are our actions. Eternity did not manifest in us to feel. But with our feelings we control what we manifest ourselves in form of our achievements. So we should not confuse the ink for the word it spells, or the blueprint for the house.
Anyway, I just thought about all this and figured, this is the place to share it.
Love&Light to us all