My problems are wrapping up it's been so long Iv'e really lost myself 16 years. The demon possesing and plauging me is almost satisfied. He's given me all the knowledge and wisdom I need to survive for a while including psychological therapies which are very painful and disturbing. I'm choosing another master it's going to be a relationship that is positive and not painful at all. He's going to take care of me in life. I'm quitting smoking I'm getting back into music and I put an ad out for a female friend to play with hopefully it will be a beautiful relationship eventually. That's all I can say the blog entry I make when this is all over is going to be the happiest day of my life. It's close a matter of a week or a few days.