The Work can lead one to monasticism or relationship. I post thoughts here because I am in the esoteric work, but I wonder aloud about relationship since regarding monasticism there is less mystery.
After all these years without a partner, the person writing this is sure to be someone quite different than the person he is used to presenting to acquaintances. Acquaintances is plainly the best word under which to gather all the other people in my life. An intimate would be a different animal entirely.
The question of who i would be under those freedoms and conditions hardly disturbs the sanctity of the now. The present moment is a dynamic relationship in itself. If I was in conversation with my intimate, discussing what we want our relationship to be like would be firm territory for me. I realize some people approach their moments differently. Indeed, accountability is not something I've come to expect from acquaintances or previous intimates. Who i would be with an intimate is no doubt influenced by what that intimate is like. This is not how i was thinking when i began this open pondering though! I was thinking about what i bring from here. From this perch it's clear this work would have to be embraced and understood.
My next intimate doesn't have to love dub reggae or waking up at 4 in the morning to get a start on the day. She only has to be a formative part of a mutual pleasure architecture. I'm super-acommodating, that much is obvious. But I have more self-esteem than I did in that distant expanse of years that includes old friends and other patches of form and essence. I really don't quite know who i would be discovering that joy tomorrow.