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PLEASE HELP ME - I AM NOT PSYCHOTIC OR DELUSIONAL...I HAVE CONTRACTED MORGELLANS

Okay, so admittedly I am a drug user, and have witnessed psychosis in many individuals and on many occasions. Recently after having turned my life around and trained as a holistic therapist, I met a girl whom I felt  moved with compassion for, she previously having been sectioned and blaming herself for several deaths around her aswell as several suicides of friends and the death of her late husband.

I recently started experiencing unusual and horrific symptoms. Black fluff would multiply before my eyes on  the floor in my bedroom, and many other places I went. I kept having crawling sensations similar to the sensations caused by stimulant drugs but so much more undeniably prominent.

I assumed I had psychosis and the first time I walked into A&E I explained I needed confirmation from a professional for I am either going mad from psychosis and thus need to be here, or something truly horrific is happening which could be contagious  and trigger a potential epidemic.

I was patronised and told I was delusional, the pot of samples I had collected were dismissed and the doctor presumed an explanation for each one without testing and overlooked the most horrific specimen I had saved in a contact lens  case:

These included a range of substances that I extracted or burst out through my skin painfully:

Several threads and fibres of differing lengths mainly fine black fluffballs, fine long greyish/silverish threads, threads resembling nylon, small white dots ressembling eggs, thicker medium to long white spaggetti like thread things each with one of the white dots at the tip, thicker medium to long BLKACK cotton-like thread things each with one of the white dots at the tip.

Sharp stinging hairline cuts appearing on my hands, fingertips, between toes.

A vibrating sensation coming from problem areas, the intuitive thoughts and feeling that there was something moving beneath the skin as more white and black dots were secreted through the pores in my skin at a truly alarming rate.

An increase in headaches. Stiff joints. Difficulty in breathing which did not respond to asthma inhalers.

A bubbly texture beneath the skin surface on solar plexus, beneath collarbone and , surrounding left nipple ( hairs were shaved off to avoid confusion between the emerging dots and threads and dead skin/ body hair).

Itching scalp and skin.

An other individual who couldn’t resist squeezing what looked like spots on my fore head only to find what emerged alarmed him exclaiming, ‘shit man that looks like a little maggot!’

Buzzing noise sounding like a struggling insect.

Finding an alarming amount of random dead insect in the lining and seams of trousers.

And being unable to breathe properly or eat, coupled with loss of appetite I began to regurgitate the white dots from my oesophagus, resembling a a small bowl of rice pudding.

The horrific sample: I coughed out the object that was lodged in my throat, that was causing difficulty swallowing, it resembling a large maggot the size of a jelly baby man and of a pinkish/whiteish/yellowish colour, also with several of the white tipped rice pudding granules semi protruding out of it.

I went back to the hospital after having dismissed it as my imagination, I became shocked when other individuals (although these individuals were also taking stimulants on these occasions could see and concur what was happening to me – therefore not psychosis, hallucination or delusion for those are alterations of my perception and my reality! If its in my head others shouldn’t be able to see it at all!!!)

I was patronised and the process had stopped, however the triage nurse urged me to stay because the ECG machine was not working….. I said no it is, but whatever was happening in my body that had just stopped (I believe due to us having gone from the warmth of my house to hospital by ambulance) was still effecting the static electricity and bio energy field of my body. Whenever in the warmth, it seemed to trigger off a distressing and painful episode,  and accelerated alarmingly when my system was exighted by stimulants, or if I became anxious, frightened and panicing.

Mould was growing in many areas of my house, black mould that resembled the black dust in the fluff that would multiply on the carpets and in my clothing.

I battled with two unknown things moving around painfully under the surface of my skin, one of which kept moving down from my neck towards my heart, at one point which, both of my arms became freezing cold with excruciating pins and needles, I became dizzy, collapsed on the floor and then used the suction on the hoover to drag it back up. All the while silver threads began ooziung through my skin, I protected my heart area using a can of deodorant freezing the threads mid air as they came through my left breast/nipple just above heart area. I shaved my chest hair to avoid any confusing between a 10cm long silver or black thread and my body hair.

Again after going to the hospital I self discharged for I was patronised, and more was asked about my drug use and mental health history than in my symptoms, and explanations as written above.

 

AFTER MUCH RESEEARCH by MYSELF I AM CONVINCED THIS IS MORGELLANS.

 However the cause and cure is a mystery, I have found out that the girl I menmtioned had  suffered with this in solitary confinement in a psych ward 10 years ago. My intuition and some signs one of which was seeing a dead black cat on the pavement whilst walking to her house, the cat frozen rigid with rigor mortis and with all is hairs stood on end as if it was electrocuted  or died of fright.

I believe the root cause may be dark magic, dark spirits and/or  some kind of inter-dimensional parasite, that attracts the like in this dimension through some kind of sympathetic resonance, until finally flies and bugs and parasites in this dimension have gained access to my home and person, and  my physical body.

Two days ago on my 30th birthday I was contemplating suicide for it was so horrific and too much to cope with. I turn to anyone anywhere with advice and help for healing this condition. I have found some practical info for cleaning in this dimension, aswell as a combo of essential oils. 

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I am very sorry that you are going through this. Have you been checked for Lyme disease?

Also, my friend's mother went through a similar experience and apparently had good results using a rife machine.

Hey, i tried reading your post, don't want to, its charged of a sort of energy I don't want around me, and as you say dark. Protect yourself. Be intuitive. Don't surround your self by low vibrating people. If the root is magical the solution will be magial. Keep positive, sooner or later it will be sunrise.

Learn the Lesser banishing ritual of the pentagram and ask the archangel Raphael for healing. 

Try burning them out in as many ways as you can, find a sunny spot out in the wild and meditate on light and try to imagine and feel the light going through your body. Also try and generate lots of negative ions around you using amethyst and tourmaline and himalayan salt crystals. And last but not least try and figure out if they like acidic host enviroment or alkaline and make your body a place that they dont want to be by drinking lemon water or some other way to make more alkaline. 

This is all assuming that your problem originated from a 'magical' thing. If this is a known disease then you need to get medicine but I assume if it was then they would have already helped you.

http://www.morgellonsuk.org.uk/support_skincleansing.htm

This article may help you, and I would like to add that with these cleansing skin treatments, steam and heat really help to open the pores and cleanse so paired with these it may help to get these things out of the skin. I also saw mention of bathing in borax sea salt and alfalfa a couple times, and taking oil of oregano 2-3x a day with water as it will burn your mouth if you take it raw. I added these because you need to rid yourself of the corporeal manifestation even if it is spiritual. And you may look up some things to cleanse the digestive tract as well. Then follow those bathes with your spiritual cleansing:

http://www.gaia.com/article/spiritual-spring-cleaning-6-ways-cleans...

and

http://www.chopra.com/ccl/clear-your-energy-and-lift-your-spirits-w...

I see its already been said but try burning them once they have been released, and then cleansing the spot with one of these methods, and I would also do a full cleansing on your home, including cleaning it fully and then doing your spiritual cleansing. The combination of all of these will really have the strongest effect. I would also recommend following your cleansing with a chakra alignment, and then a protection ritual, creating an auric shield. You may also want to begin doing a spiritual cleansing and then manifesting your auric shield every day as soon as you wake up. You may already know this but here are some links just in case:

http://www.gaia.com/article/7-easy-steps-align-your-chakras

https://sirianheaven.wordpress.com/2012/09/01/how-to-create-an-aura...

Another really important thing to mention is that they strive on an unhealthy body, soul and mind. If you don't do so already eat a plant based diet, avoid processed food and grease or sugars, try to find natural alternatives to pharmaceuticals, be active, surround yourself with positive people, focus on things that you love, dance, listen to positive music, avoid horror movies and things like that, spend as much time as you can in the sunshine and the outdoors, swim in natural bodies of water specifically flowing water as its less stagnant. Understand that you are a strong individual, or you wouldn't be targeted, but you can rid yourself of this. You have that power. Be Happy, and Be Confident.

At the risk of seeming too forthcoming and, perhaps worse yet, representing the monstrosity of the medical field.... Have you had comprehensive blood tests run? You need to have an identifier, of sorts. Even if you dont necessarily support or believe in pharmacological treatment, finding out your own biochemical levels and potential unbalances and/or deficiencies is KEY in better undestanding what it is you may be dealing with. The consequences of various low levels can mirror the very things you have displayed. I would further suggest, and I am not discrediting any kind of fundamental symbolism that you may have regarding the descriptive imagery you have used, that you go on an allergy treatment regimen. Be it pharmaceutical or otherwise, sinusitis can become quite the beast within your head and travels to your chest, eventually, if not kept in check. All too often, allergies are not readily identified and you may not even be aware that you have more than one thing you are intolerant of. Perhaps one feeds off of another. Deficiencies can bring forth an intolerance whereas there may not be intolerance if it were not for the deficiency. This is an all too important empowerment you need to gain recovery. If I may suggest, though there may be something within some of us to "martar" the beast within ourselves and though it may be a type of unrecognized self discipline many unknowingly adhere to, you do NOT have to submit yourself to a level of disfunction and lose the ability to further overcoming the detrimental ailment you have described.  The fact that you are questioning it proves you are ready to better identify it.

As far as the dead carcass you mentioned, it is a shell. Understand that any life force represented in that is not of its own. If any kind of force was present, it was made manifest after the original passing. Perhaps it represents the symbolic host. Do you feel that you are being drained of your lifeforce? At the risk of sounding like a talk therapist, and I apologize to the professionals, lol, but do you feel that you have been within a bit of a flatlined mode? A lack of emotion, squelching the spirit as some say, denying yourself your own expressions and/or interests can very well bring up the immediate recognition of dead carcasses.  I know these things from direct experience and it is my hope that you recover. Best wishes.

anti-anxiety and/or anti-psychotic pills might do some good here. No worries, I take them too. Your constant state of fear must end before things can change for the better.

Hi Alex, I just bumped into your writing. Are you still sick. If so i think I can suggest some things to help you. LMK
I know two people that had morgellas and did really well by doing one of Jim Humble's protocol with MMS. I'm using for cancer right now.
wow, so many possibilities are flooding my mind right now. before going any further, i need to address what "they" (the ascendant spiritual collective tuned into my intuition) are seriously trying to get across. something to do with the pineal gland? that it needs to be decalcified?
cleansed? ok, now that its out of the way, i can sort through what im picking up from your situation.
i also wish to preface all else with letting you know that im a drug user as well, actually, as an addict, i struggle with it, so im no one to judge.
as an empath as well, i would never suggest anything malicious, harmful, or beyond the scope of what i wouldn't try myself.
ok, when you say "stimulants" i imagine you mean something which isn't METH? (S.W.I.M.) its not my thing, but i do know quite a bit about it, the people who use it as well as the lifestyle and accompanying behavior. all too well, unfortunately but thats another story.
i have several interesting theories about the drug, about morgellons, and about how i think they're inter-related.
first thing first. yes, i tend to agree 100% with you about the dark, negative parasittistic energies, entities,sub evil (something with such a low vibrational energy that it cant even be classified as evil. basically evil in training) and demonic parallels, dimensions, realms etc
connected to this stuff. im willing to go as far as saying this: it doesn't come from nature. it's completely synthetic and i feel its evil on a molecular level. i wouldn't be shocked if under a microscope, its very structure has the appearance of a parasite as well as having parasites living in it. its probably how morgellons gets transferred to human hosts, by design no less. I mean this drug was dreamed up by hitler (it doesn't get much more evil than that)
who hired Japanese chemists to create it. what about the possibility of the parasites attaching themselves to your thoughts, your energy, all the while replicating like a virus. then, attaching to your brain chemistry, body chemistry, organs, and finally surfacing outside the body, even as you project them out into the environment around you? terrifying stuff.
to be continued...

I just started honing in on ways to begin cleansing and detoxing your body.

Raw apple cider internally as well as externally

Kangen water

Look for following supplements:

Burdock root 

Black cohosh

Dandelion root

Sulphur

Noni juice extract 

Papaya and pineapple enzyme

Soak body in Epsom salt 30 min daily

Aztec secret Indian healing clay -follow instructions

Contact Edgar cayce  society about remote healing 

Hope this helps. may love, !ight, and healing wash over you, work through you, surrounding and protecting you.

Google a product called TIAN CHI and order a 30 day supply if you can afford 

it. If you can't do thirty days, order whatever amount you can afford. Even just the introduction of this stuff into your system will at least kick your body into gear.

P.S.  I know it's hard but try to stop or at least cut way down.

Sea salt perimeter of your home.

Reading Psalm 91 aloud (the more believers the better) in every room of your home. Important don't skip any rooms.

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