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Pieces of me

I feel so empty, broken down beyond recognition.

The me I thought I knew evaporated with the winds of time

She took a part of me with her, a part I never will get back.

So many faces I see in the mirror, yet neither knows me as I am,

Neither can touch my broken heart or open the gate of my soul

It hurts to be alone in your own prison

Walls of which I build myself, my protection became my prison.


Which one of you all is me? the crazy…


Added by anki on July 2, 2020 at 3:42pm — No Comments

Journey of a fool

I see the sun in the sky,

 I see it dance in the horizon.

How I wish I could shine like you,

king of the sky.


I float on the waves of our mother

I feel them wash my soul from filth

How I am thankful to learn from you

Healer of healers under the sky.


I fly with the birds between clouds of silk.

I know that they are me and I am them.

How mesmerized I am, by your endless oceans.



Added by anki on June 26, 2020 at 7:45pm — 1 Comment

Dance of the twins

Hello my friend, here we meet again after 25 years.

It was just yesterday that I last saw you,

Back in the year of the pig, hidden deep within the earth.

On the top of the murmur stairs we stand one more time.

To find the mother of all questions, the seat of the soul.

Why do we live? What is our breath? Who is that I am inside the skin?


A lot has changed since the last time we felt alive.

Everything we knew was lost in that December…


Added by anki on May 29, 2020 at 5:30pm — 2 Comments

Happy to see EO back

I am so happy to see this place back again. I have missed it and all of you soo much. 

Very thankful to Tris for bringing it back, my heart and soul are in this place, my little online safe space. 

Added by anki on May 11, 2020 at 4:34am — 8 Comments

The traveler and the bawl of feathers

Once upon a time there was a traveler from the lands below.

Lived in a cottage in the mountains all alone.

The only company he had were the animals and the trees.

Though company they were none the less spoke in language only the soul hears.

Songs of days passed they sang just like the ancient bards in the land of Britain.

On a small wooden bench, he would sit under the old oak and think of the old days.

Days when the gods walked the earth and when…


Added by anki on November 23, 2019 at 3:53am — No Comments

Lost spirit

In the middle of the night, under the moonless sky there was an old graveyard. Some tombs were new and some from Victorian times. It stretched far in the horizon. There were flowers and angels on the tombs. One could see which is taken care of and has a family and which was deserted to be covered by weeds. There weren’t any people at…


Added by anki on November 4, 2019 at 5:56pm — 3 Comments




What do you do when the knife hits your chest?

When it runs across pale skin and digs deep into your heart

The warfare spend through the years becomes meaningless

The strive vanishes and the importance of life and only life is there.

Would you hate your killer in the end?

The one who took your life? Are they good or bad?

If death is only transition wouldn’t they be a rescuer?

What is the meaning of life if death means…


Added by anki on October 28, 2019 at 5:45pm — 2 Comments

The purple queen

Once in the undercover of the night

Under a silken blanket of stars

Under the guidance of the full bright moon

The throne of skulls rose above the oceans.

a diamond star shining on top as the light that she is.


Out of the darkness of the sky she was born

Free as the air and strong as the earth beneath

Out of the dusts of Gia she was sculptured

To walk the earth as long as time exists.


The grass caressed her bare…


Added by anki on October 5, 2019 at 7:00pm — 5 Comments

Witches Trials Today and Vlach Magic


The Vlachs of Serbia are an ethnic minority of Serbia, culturally and linguistically related to Romanians. Magic is an important part of Vlach life and customs and everything Vlachs believe in has, in a way, magical traits. Vlach magic, by its strength, is next to…


Added by anki on June 30, 2019 at 10:15am — 1 Comment

The house of mirrors

- essay based on a dream, written by me.
Sometimes what we fear is exactly what we need the most, the things we avoid is what will help us and the people we dislike is who will teach us the biggest lessons in life. The darkness of the soul is the ugliness in us we all try to…

Added by anki on March 9, 2019 at 7:53pm — No Comments

My inner library

There is a library close to my house, no more than a 15-minute walk. Around the corner close by a shopping mall that is always filled by the children from the two schools nearby. It is a place that I used to go to think and gather my thoughts when I had an hour free. On my way back from work I would go there and sit with headphones in my ears so no one would bother me, a book in my hands and I would ponder upon everything happening in my life. That…

Added by anki on March 1, 2019 at 7:03pm — No Comments

Eternal flame

*** written for a very special someone***

There is love deeper than any other I have ever seen

Love that tears your heart out right out of your chest

Love so intense that it hurts and makes your body vibrate in ecstasy.



Added by anki on February 28, 2019 at 11:15am — No Comments

Eyes of the father

Inside my heart there is a flame, shining like the father above

Dancing to the rhythm of mother below, forever burning.

A sun within my heart, the birth of all creation

A seat of the soul and the flower of life.

Such beauty is only surpassed by Venus and Helen of Troy.


The inner sun it is called, a second of three that shine.

One beneath our feet inside the chest of the mother

One in our hearts and one in the eye of the…


Added by anki on February 18, 2019 at 6:18pm — 1 Comment

The Naghini

I want to tell you the story of a woman known only as the Indian beauty.  She was a young yoga teacher in India, she thought ashtanga to children and loved to be around them.  She had a small studio at the corner of a square where lots of people would hand around.  Many of those people would chase the dogs and kill them, because there were too many and would spread diseases according to the local population. A man with a big knife was called the hero of the city because he could kill a dog…


Added by anki on February 3, 2019 at 6:24am — 1 Comment

Labyrinth of thoughts

Who am I? what am I? There are so many voices inside my head.

So many faces, so many versions of who I am supposed to be.

I feel lost in the myriad of me’s dwelling inside my mind.

The countless trains racing through my mind

Each filled with passengers called thoughts and each about something else.

Such is the chaos inside my brain, chaos I don’t even understand.


Often I am well and can speak to you, I can even help you.

But other…


Added by anki on November 27, 2018 at 5:18pm — No Comments

The gates of Walhalla

When you work with people there is always that one that gets under your skin, the one that you bond strongest with, the one that makes your day worthwhile. I work with people because I love helping them in their hard moments, I love to be of service to them with anything they need. Life can be so harsh that it often doesn’t take much to bring a smile to someone’s…

Added by anki on November 23, 2018 at 6:00pm — No Comments


In my field of work, I meet many different types of people, each with their interests and ways of live. Countless different souls on the path of creation. Some meet each other on the way to mastery and help each other grow and then move on, o travel further alone.  Some we meet and they automatically attract us, they have this something inside them that pulls us to them without even knowing why. Might be a smile, the way they look at us or the way they carry themselves across the room when…


Added by anki on November 4, 2018 at 2:09pm — No Comments

The old school

There was a time long ago, when electricity was a thing of the past. When children went to school with horse and wagon, or walking. When the streets were covered with dirt and machinery didn’t rule our lives. It was a charming time filled with hard working people, with fear of the supernatural and with homemade meals cooked by the mother who stayed by the hot stove all day while her man was working to put that same food on the table. It was an alien time that most of us can’t image yet it…


Added by anki on October 31, 2018 at 2:34pm — 3 Comments

Into the mind of a madman


What is it that dwells me as the sun goes down

A symphony of noises that never made a sound

Frozen  notes of once have beens

Emotions of agony buried deep within

For why is this road less travelled,

Rockier than the stones at sea

And why does this heart restless

Even with the moon at ease.


No birds in flight above the waters

No worms crawling underneath the sand

Just endless ramble of the…


Added by anki on October 18, 2018 at 6:16pm — 1 Comment

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